Wheee!

Why yes, I actually decided to update. 😜 I’m so terrible about this. 😂

Anyway, quite a bit happier then I was yesterday. Work was awful and I was just having a general bad day. Part of it is my own stupidness. I accidentally went two days without taking my anxiety/anti-depression meds. 😣 On top of that my lady friend is due. 🤪 So, awful, awful day. Oh yeah, and it also was the anniversary of my brother’s death. 😭 My mom and sister got balloons and hung them on his archy target. Sadly the rain kinda messed em up. So yeah, again, not a happy day.

But as I mentioned I had a much better day today. Just was feeling better. Maybe since my meds were back in my system. Plus had a nice talk with my mom last night. Also started trying out the Five Minute Journal again via the app. That felt really good. I tend to credit that the most. 😅

And in more better news I bought myself a new computer. A MacBook Air.

Mine was a bit old. Mostly I got it because I had just gotten my vacation check from work (like $620), and I decided to use it for that, which covered slightly more then half. Normally it would of been saved for my vacations (a week in July and another in August), however, with the Covid-19 we’re not doing anything so I decided to use it for that.

Really love it. The new features are great, and it runs way better. My dad got my old one for Father’s Day. He hates trying to figure out how to use it. 😂 Its his first Mac.

Anyway, that’s about it I guess.

A new necklace and vacation!

So, a few entries back I mentioned how my brother passed away. When making funeral arrangements we paid extra for some necklaces of his fingerprints. Me, my mom, and sister got one. And we got it engraved on the back. Those finally came in!

Happy Birthday, Billy!

I know, its been a while. Just either haven’t had time, or well didn’t feel like writing. 😅 Anyway, thanks guys for the support about my brother. It means a lot. 🙂

Stuff has mostly been the same. Except been sick for the last week. My mom is gonna try to get a hold of the doctor in the morning. I gotta get rid of whatever this is! 😡 On the plus I’m off work for the week. Well, I was basically off last week with being sick, but this week I had actually taken off for. 😝

Also this is being written on the 15th, but haven’t gone to bed yet, so to me it still feels like the 14th. Anyway, it was my brother’s birthday. We had decided to send some balloons up in the sky for him, and a sky lantern. Later my aunt brought over some bubble blower to send bubbles up with too. Oh, and my mom had some Megaman toy she had bought for him months ago so she put it in his room.

I’m doing okay about all this. I just…its not that I don’t care. I do…I guess I don’t have room for it right now in my head. In a way it still doesn’t feel real. Its really hit my mom hard…and my dog. She keeps looking for him.

I’ll always love and miss him. He really should still be here.

Anyway, guess that’s all for now.