Today has been…okay I suppose.
Work was irriatating me this morning. I was very grumpy. I went on an early break which I wasn’t pleased about, but on the other hand just wanted to take a break too. It didn’t really matter since I went home early anyway. They needed to cut people because they keep scheduling way too many people. Only worked slightly under three hours. I was fine with it since I was kinda hoping they’d have to. Would of been nice if they’d decided that before putting me on break. Also gotta watch it. I can’t lose too many hours. I think they said they gotta look at tomorrow’s schedule too, so hopefully they don’t shorten me. I already have a total of 3 short days counting today. So just gotta watch it with going home early.
Its hard cause I just get so sick of it. A lot of the people I work with are idiots. Honestly people tend to get on my nerves. Its just…very hard for me. Plus I get sick of having to do more then the others. I just don’t feel like working right now. But I need to, and besides I should be grateful to have this job, and I am. Its just hard sometimes. Especially when I get into these slumps or moods.
When I got home I played a bit of Animal Crossing: New Horizons and took a nap. After I woke up I fed myself, lazed a bit then cleaned my room.
Also had a doctor appointment over the phone. This doctor takes care of any medical stuff I need for my anxiety and depression (same place my counselor is at). I hate these things because I have a real hard time being completely honest. I always get scared they’ll think I’m nuts and lock me up. I know I’m not, just have trouble with stuff, but I hate telling them this stuff. I do have to get better with that. I do however, try to be mostly honest.
Anyway nothing major there. She renewed my medications I think and is sending scripts for a blood test. She wants me check that I’m all good.
On the subject of medical junk I think I’ve been grinding my teeth at night again. Ever so often it pops up. I guess when I get tense. I usually would wear a mouth guard for a bit at night and it would go away. I tried a different kind (since that’s all there was at the store). However, it made my gums feel weird in the morning. I think maybe the plastic rubbing on them? Not sure. But gonna try it without it tonight. I’ll just try not to clench them if I can help it. I hate when this happens, since it makes my mouth hurt. Hopefully it’ll go away soon.
Well, I guess that’s it for now.
Why yes, I actually decided to update. 😜 I’m so terrible about this. 😂
Anyway, quite a bit happier then I was yesterday. Work was awful and I was just having a general bad day. Part of it is my own stupidness. I accidentally went two days without taking my anxiety/anti-depression meds. 😣 On top of that my lady friend is due. 🤪 So, awful, awful day. Oh yeah, and it also was the anniversary of my brother’s death. 😭 My mom and sister got balloons and hung them on his archy target. Sadly the rain kinda messed em up. So yeah, again, not a happy day.
But as I mentioned I had a much better day today. Just was feeling better. Maybe since my meds were back in my system. Plus had a nice talk with my mom last night. Also started trying out the Five Minute Journal again via the app. That felt really good. I tend to credit that the most. 😅
And in more better news I bought myself a new computer. A MacBook Air.
Mine was a bit old. Mostly I got it because I had just gotten my vacation check from work (like $620), and I decided to use it for that, which covered slightly more then half. Normally it would of been saved for my vacations (a week in July and another in August), however, with the Covid-19 we’re not doing anything so I decided to use it for that.
Really love it. The new features are great, and it runs way better. My dad got my old one for Father’s Day. He hates trying to figure out how to use it. 😂 Its his first Mac.
Anyway, that’s about it I guess.
Well figured I should update. Mostly to let you all know I felt better after resting for that day. Was just the weather I guess. 😊
Last week has been a lazy week for me. It was so hot I never felt like doing much. And work, has been ugh as usual. I’m trying more or will be to better myself and not let stuff get to me. I need to ignore people that irritate me instead of getting mad and having outbursts sometimes. Honestly my main problem.
I have been trying out Final Fantasy XIV Online. There was a free trial for 30 days and thanks to reading Winter Moon (a web comic about online gaming), I felt like playing one of those again. I used to play a few: Final Fantasy XI, World of Warcraft, Fly for Fun.
Not too far in. Don’t think I like it as much as XI or World of Warcraft though. But I’ll play some more. I made my character one of the cat looking races. To me she’s a ferret! 😆