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I’m tired, and honestly should be getting ready for bed.

Been on the computer pretty much since at the latest 2 PM. Trying to restore my iPad and get my songs back on. ๐Ÿ˜’ Been having a hard time partly cause of my focus on doing it perfect and making sure its perfect. Its annoying and one of the many things I need to get over. But I should be almost done…hopefully.

I gotta spend my time better. I just feel like I waste everyday.

Just not feeling great honestly. Not horrible, but not great. I’ve been bad and been picking (at scabs and pimples I get) which I shouldn’t do. Its a nervous thing partly. Doesn’t help I’m still waiting for my month buddy to show up. ๐Ÿ˜‚

Meh, well I guess that’s it for now.

Posted on May 7th, 2019 in Health, Offline by Megan. 0 Comments

The joys of anxiety!

Figured I should update. I don’t even think I’ve written in my journal this week! Haven’t really thought to or been lazy. But its been a rough week with work. Hopefully this week will be better! Just gotta try harder! ๐Ÿ˜˜

Today been struggling a bit. Mostly with anxiety and stuff. Partly its cause my period should be coming soon. Also I did take my medications later (for depression and anxiety and stuff). I’m used to taking it at like 4:30 am, I took it around noonish. ๐Ÿ˜… So probably a bit of everything. However, I mostly been doing okay dealing with it. Just been telling myself to calm down.

I’ve found this quote helpful from Tiny Budda.com:

โ€œWhen you canโ€™t control whatโ€™s happening, challenge yourself to control how you respond to whatโ€™s happening. Thatโ€™s where your power is.โ€ – Unknown –

Its got me all over it! ๐Ÿ˜† But I keep thinking of it today and I found it helps. That and trying just to ignore stuff.

Also the same site has an interesting book on worries. More info here. Tempted to try it, but not quite sure if its for me. Plus I do have a lot of journals as it is. ๐Ÿ˜… I do follow their twitter and like some of the quotes they post.

I am at least nearly done with all my chores. Just a few more to finish up and all done. Its nice to be done a little bit eariar then usual.

I’d like to watch some Magic Knight Rayearth, but probably won’t happen. Hopefully can at least fit in catching up on reading “Precious Moments Holy Bible” though!

Posted on March 31st, 2019 in Health, Offline, Online by Megan. 12 Comments

Boo accidents!

I swear these days I’m just an accident waiting to happen! It just gets worse as the years go by… ๐Ÿ˜…

So…was at work (where most my lovely accidents happen ๐Ÿ˜’ ) I was flipping over a garbage can that the closers had put upside down. There’s this drain up front which tends to leak up water, it was sitting near it. I flipped it up (though had to force it since part of the bag part was stuck under a wheel of a nearby cart) and some of the water went into my eye. Shortly started to burn so I tried to wipe it with a wet napkin. It was still irritated. I let a manager know, but since we were short handed they weren’t really paying attention.

I ended up calling my mom, she said to keep flushing it with a handful of water, which I did. I did mention it again to the manager and she said thankfully that the water isn’t sewer water, some ice from outside I guess. But I did have them write an accident report, and I told them I didn’t think I could finish my shift. It was really irritated and bothering me. Kinda felt like a wussy jerk, but I couldn’t work like that.

Anyway, I went home and passed out on the couch (I also didn’t get much sleep).

Woke up later. Eye is still like all dry and irritated, but my mom said it should be okay. I’d know if it had done like any damage. So, hopefully she’s right. Right now its mostly dry and feels just irritated. But flushing could of done that too.

The whole thing still annoys me. So sick of hurting myself at work cause of idiots!

Posted on March 25th, 2019 in Health, Offline, Work by Megan. 4 Comments
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Name: Megan
Nicknames: Maroon and Maroon Caludin
Gender: Female
Birthdate: September 25th
Age: 33
Occupation: McDonalds employee
Hobbies: Writing, drawing, reading, games, computers, role playing, web design, cartoons, comics, manga/anime, web comics, and animals Read More