Getting there!

I mentioned in my last post I’ve been sick. On the way to getting better, I think.

I finally was able to shower. I haven’t exactly taken care of myself too great in that regard. It felt really awesome to get all clean and not be smelly. 😛 I’m still not 100%, but feeling way better then I was.

Also was out of the house finally! I mean I was briefly outside yesterday, but I was still in crud PJ clothes and all that. First I’ve properly been out of the house since Wednesday of last week. Felt nice to go out even if I don’t always feel up to it right now.

Me and my mom went to Rite Aid to pick up some prescriptions the doctor called in for whatever I have. Taking antibiotics now for it. Also picked up various things I needed.

Later went to a doctor appointment (counselor). Other then that just the usual lazing about and resting. Took a long nap and later watched some Lion King special with my mom and sister. It was pretty cool. Mostly interesting to see the old stuff. Planning to see the new movie after it comes out. Not opening day, but sometime.

Tomorrow we’re (me, my mom, and sister) are going to this salt lamp store near us. We went there last year, its pretty cool. So excited to do that.

Anyway, that’s all really. Later!

Happy Birthday, Billy!

I know, its been a while. Just either haven’t had time, or well didn’t feel like writing. 😅 Anyway, thanks guys for the support about my brother. It means a lot. 🙂

Stuff has mostly been the same. Except been sick for the last week. My mom is gonna try to get a hold of the doctor in the morning. I gotta get rid of whatever this is! 😡 On the plus I’m off work for the week. Well, I was basically off last week with being sick, but this week I had actually taken off for. 😝

Also this is being written on the 15th, but haven’t gone to bed yet, so to me it still feels like the 14th. Anyway, it was my brother’s birthday. We had decided to send some balloons up in the sky for him, and a sky lantern. Later my aunt brought over some bubble blower to send bubbles up with too. Oh, and my mom had some Megaman toy she had bought for him months ago so she put it in his room.

I’m doing okay about all this. I just…its not that I don’t care. I do…I guess I don’t have room for it right now in my head. In a way it still doesn’t feel real. Its really hit my mom hard…and my dog. She keeps looking for him.

I’ll always love and miss him. He really should still be here.

Anyway, guess that’s all for now.

The funeral

Well, today was the funeral. Before it we had a visitation for people to say good-bye and stuff.

We weren’t sure who would come and were hoping some people would come. We honestly had nothing to worry about. So many people came! The room was packed. Most of them were crying. I guess it shows how many people my brother touched. It’s nice.

My dad said something during the service. He did a great job. He got broken up a bit at the end, but finished! Go dad! The service was nice.

We had a bunch of flowers to take home, and er, my brother. He was cremated. My one cousins wife made a meal for us to take home which was super nice. It wasn’t bad either.

My poor mom was so broken up…so was my sister. My dad was too, but not as badly. I was too, but I don’t always show stuff like that too easily. It depends with me.

We don’t get them yet, but we’re getting three memorial necklaces of my brother’s thumbprint. We have to decide if we want something written on the back yet.

After the funeral we ate the food we were given and I took a nap while listening to The Doors (my brother’s favorite band which I’m growing fond of as well).

I still feel like just sleeping honestly. Its not entirely unusual for me. I get tired so easily.

I’m going to miss him so much. I really loved him…and I still do. I hope he’s in a happier place now.