Improvements and frustration

I suppose its about time I updated.

First, an update about my eye. It did mostly clear up. Eye doctor just said to keep washing it and using a compress. Naturally being me I neglected to half the time. It did feel like it was coming back.

But this is where it got interesting. See, I have eye plugs in the tear ducts of my eyes. I get bad dry eye so it helps keep moisture it. It helps quite a bit. Well, one morning like a few weeks ago was cleaning the gunk out of that eye and what do you know it had come out. If you look close enough you can tell. Last time I looked it had been there so I assume it came out during the night.

Now, the funny thing is after that my eye stopped bothering me at all! My mom thinks maybe it had been coming out and causing issues. No idea. I will have to get it replaced sometime, but not in a big hurry too. Especially since I was literally just at the eye doctor.

Not a lot else going on. Work has been….meh. Lately since we got this new kid in the grill area they keep trying to put me in back drive-thru. Thing with that is for the last year or more I’ve only done grill. Maybe do the window when absolutely needed. I’m better at grill and sometimes have a hard time dealing with customers. Supposedly this guy was slowly learning the window, but never heard a thing.

My main issue is I’m a grill person and like I said have a harder time with it and I’m one of the better grill workers. Plus, I’m not too knowledgeable about the window anymore. The other half is more on the medical end. I have issues with my bladder and kidneys. I sometimes have to go to the bathroom a lot. And I really shouldn’t be holding it at all. I’m not always able to go to the bathroom as easily in the window especially if its busy or no ones there to take my spot. Now, if I do hold it, my sides hurt. And once that usually happens at work it messes it up for the day. Oh and naturally it’s when it’s getting colder and stuff. Cause of my health stuff I probably could get sick easier too.

Last week they had me in there way more than usual. And they’ve slowly increased the length of time. One of the days they tried to when they had someone for there. The manager just didn’t want to be up front by herself. I basically said no. I don’t mind if your short and there’s no one else, but its another story when you have someone.

I’m going to see how it goes from here, but if it continues that way I’ll speak to the store manager. Probably say I can do it, but no more then like an hour. I just don’t like being taken advantage of and basically being kicked out of grill cause of some new idiot. Just really upsets and makes me angry.

But I guess we’ll see. I’m hoping it’ll improve soon.

Eye issues

Nothing like super major, exactly. My left eye has been bothering me since at least Sunday. The bottom lid area was painful and stuff. My mom thought it was congestion which I assumed it was. Was getting eye gooies too, so still assumed that’s all it was.

But it got worse. Today it was the worst. It was killing me at work. Just felt painful, raw, and dry. So called my mom and she got me an appointment at the eye doctor while I was at work.

The doctor did look at it. She said it looked like something was going on, but it didn’t seem to be an infection. She thought maybe a stye was forming. So she told me to use baby shampoo to clean and do a warm compress on it, and she prescribed some antibiotic drops just in case it was an infection.

I’ve washed it once so far and did a few warm compresses, which does briefly relieve it. Took one dose of the drops. Still hurts a lot. In fact I took a nap and after I got up it felt so raw and dry. So continued use of my regular eye drops (it said I could on the prescribed ones). Still hurts like hell though. I have been getting more gooies out again (I hadn’t the last couple days too much). So I guess that’s good? I’m hoping it at least eases up soon.

I was supposed to work tomorrow, but I called in. It was hurting too much. And it bothered me a lot at work today. And the heat from the grill probably doesn’t exactly help with it. Hoping it’ll be more manageable by Monday when I next work. Though hoping it lessens up before then.

Happy Birthday to me!

So today was my birthday. I’m now 40 years old. It’s a big one though doesn’t feel like it. Just another number I guess.

I took off from work for today. Picked up my cake from Wegmans, and just did some laundry and read mostly. Poked about online and watched some TV as well.

Had beef stew for dinner as I usually do which my mom makes. Was awesome as usual. Obviously for desert the cake.

Had gifts as well. My mom gave me a card and some stuff from her and my dad: a body pillow for my bed, some American Girl doll clothes for my Kirsten doll, a plush version doll of Kirsten, and a plush of a ferret as a hot dog. My sister got me a card as well as a bell for sisters, a brooch with a rose on it, and a fairy Precious Moments figurine. Also got a card from a manager from work who retired like a year ago. Surprised she remembered. Will probably call or write her tomorrow.

One thing to add. This happened yesterday when I was leaving work. After exiting the lobby at McDonalds there’s an entryway you go through. In the one I usually go out to leave was a white feather. Now, I’m sure most people would think it’s nothing. But I like to think it was maybe an Angel feather, possibly from my brother (he died like four or five years ago). He usually seems to come around around my birthday. My mom is good at sensing that stuff. She usually can smell him. I did smell him one of the nights last week, though I had thought it was just a smell, but my mom said it was him. Wouldn’t surprise me. My mom always claimed I was his favorite. Regardless, it was nice if it was him.