The best luck in the world!

…Not. 😛 Seriously I swear I have more problems. That’s why my mom called me her arby. 🤪

Also if you rather not read about um…UTI’s and bowel issues, feel free to skip the rest of the entry.

So what this time? Weeeell if you read any past entries you may know (or not) that I have issues with UTI’s. Last year I had one for like three months. I apparently am very prone to them. I was put on small dose antbolics to try to keep it like at bay. They also looked inside my bladder which was fine.

Before the lockdown out here with Covid I was having problems with it again. I had gone to the urologist again. They gave me some stronger antibiotics to get rid of it, but it never really went away. I tried some again a few weeks ago. Still nada.

Now, its gotten as bad as it was last year. I get pain by my belly button (which my doctor says is by the bladder) and the groan, and obviously when I use the bathroom. Hurts like hell to hold it which I often have to at work. I was nearly in tears the one day. And like the last time the pain is pretty constant and I feel it in my sides a lot, and it makes me nauseous. I often feel like I’m gonna puke which I have (though more of a coughing forced one, but still there).

But wait! There’s more! I’m having bowel issues too. For a while I was bleeding quite a bit (my mom said likely a hemroid.). Also what came out looked er…infected. Now I can’t really go at all. 😫 My mom said maybe we’re try some kind of medicine to make me. 🤣

So yes, Megan is a giant mess. 😅

Today I took off work since it was so bad yesterday. Have an appointment for the urologist too. Hopefully something can be done. It makes it hard to work like this. 😔

So yes, that’s what going on in the land of Megan! 😅

Yay books!

Well, I’m still somewhat overwhelmed, but I often do feel like that I guess. *shrugs* Probably one of the many things I’ll always deal with.

I did however start meditating again. I felt I needed it. Not sure how I feel yet. *shrugs*

On the plus been doing loads of reading. Got really into it when I started reading the second series of The House of Night by P.C. Cast and Kristen Cast. Forgot how good those books were. I completely devoured them. Soooo good! Then, moved on The Little House books, well one of the later series of them, The Rose Years by Roger Lea MacBride. Just as good as the original ones I think. Right now working on “To Sleep in a Sea of Stars” by Christopher Paolini. I wasn’t sure how I’d like this one, but its soooo good! So hard to put down. I highly recommend it.

Oh yeah, I did some loveliness. I am so accident prone. I was taking some nasal spray last night. It wasn’t wanting to come out. My hand slipped and it went right in my eye. It was okay though. Didn’t even really hurt actually. I rinsed it and all was well. I actually did something similar before. Some years back I had had an eye infection and had been taking drops. I stupidly kept it with my eye drops. Naturally I eventually put it in my eye. That burned like crazy! And that eye was super dry after. Though it was okay too.

I was especially annoyed last night though since I was having issues with my one eye. Allergies or whatever I guess. Was draining on one side and the other was dry from moisture dripping (likely eye drops. I have dry eye. Actually got eye plugs put in for it which helped some.). Luckily I didn’t do it to that eye. Just was so mad at myself.

Guess that’s about it.

Feeling overwhelmed

So…I haven’t written since before my vacation.

In regards to that it was okay. Not as good as my first.

Anyway, lately been feeling a bit overwhelmed.

Work is always an issue there. It gets to me. Just gets…rough. But right now mostly I think some of the habits I’ve been trying to do aren’t helping. And by habits I mean things like my bullet journal, gratitude journal, mediation, stuff like that. Though I do think the meditation has been helpful. I just feel stressed about it. Especially in the morning doing that stuff.

I did discuss it with my mom and I’m taking a break from it. And then I’ll slowly try the stuff again and see how I feel.

Today was the first day I tried. I feel sorta happy I guess. More free. Part of me I guess doesn’t want to. I’m not saying I’m giving up the stuff. Not yet. I’m going to see how I feel. Like the meditation I do enjoy. Some days its meh but other days awesome. I think it does help too. But I’m going to try without it and see like the other stuff. Could be I’m just trying to do too much. But again we’ll see.