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Feeling wonderful!

I know some of you may be wondering where my latest post went? Well, I had an issue with my forum (again!) and had to have my host (Thanks, Host Prestige!) do a back up which worked! 😊 Sadly, it was from before my post so lost that. Not planning on re-writing it.

But the gist of it was, that I was given some more medication (for bipolar along with my anti-depressions). I seem to be doing much better lately. ☺️

In fact…today has been a pretty good day. Especially considering how tired I was today! I slept horrid last night! Went to bed late (from messing with my site), and had a hard time sleeping so I got maybe three hours of sleep. But I got up feeling decent.

I’ve also decided to ditch the gratitude journal I was using (I have others too, but not using em yet), and decided to go back to the Five Minute Journal. I love the structure of it. I ordered a new one and till it comes I’ll use the app. Started it today, and it felt lovely. 😊

So, yeah, pretty good day, and am feeling really good!

Now I have to get ready for bed soon! Night!

Plugs: Chynna, Pauline, and Kassy

Posted on January 29th, 2018 in Health, Offline, Online, Updates by Megan. 12 Comments

Some doggy fun!

Well, I’ve managed to anger the dog. πŸ˜‚

My mom has been nagging me to go through my dog’s mountain of toys and toss some out. I decided to do that. I dumped em all on the floor, and my dog Poppy went in the middle and was poking through them. She was not very happy with me throwing some out! πŸ˜… She kept poking her head in the garbage bag and sometimes running off with toys. I did let her help decide. If she showed interest I usually kept it, if not it went, or if it was broke and stuff.

She still has quite a bit left, and I kept her very favorites. She’ll be getting more next week for her birthday too!

It was pretty fun going through them with her. My sister’s dog just watched. (She lives with my sister, but visits often!)

Now, off to finish off some stuff for the day!

Plugs: Edel, Chynna, and Georgie

Posted on January 8th, 2018 in Offline, Pets by Megan. 13 Comments

Some personal things…

I do have to get my rear to bed, which I will…shortly. I know I’m due for a post here, plus some things I’d like to well write out. Maybe.

I have a tendency to think I should only post about the more positive things. Which I guess is dumb. I guess I shouldn’t care what people do think about I write here or not. Its really meant to be my little spot on the web and I shouldn’t be afraid of that, here or well…anywhere honestly. I lack confidence so I do struggle with that sort of thing. I’ve lost a lot of it over the last couple years, which I need to gain back. I guess really I should only care what I think of myself and well like God and Jesus.

But anyway…I’ve been struggling a lot over the last couple years. Some of it is confidence. Some is my constant worrying. I worry about every possible thing I can just about. And I don’t trust my answers. I tend to go to my mother, which is fine, but I rely too much on her. Its not good for either of us. Plus I know the answers by now, but I still don’t trust myself. And honestly in the end, worrying does nothing. But I just get scared something bad will happen if I don’t. I have ignored them at times, and I find I do better then, but I really have to fight to not ask my mom. This is actually why I’m on anti-depression medication mostly. Though I do suffer from depression as well. Sometimes its real bad, others not so much. I’ve always had issues with this, its just gotten worse the last couple years or so. I also have the tendency to fight against it sort of. I don’t let the medicine do its job. I almost look for things to worry about. I don’t want to…it just happens.

Some of it might be anxiety. I’m not sure really.

I’ve been going to a new doctor for the last few months. My other doctor mostly just gave me my medicine, this one includes a counselor. I’m not sure what I think of it yet. I have a real hard time talking to them. I tend to be quiet and shy, plus I feel like she’ll judge me. Which I know I shouldn’t…her job is to help me.

I’ve been meditating on and off over the year. Mostly on, which I do find helps sometimes. Sometimes more then other times. I do enjoy that.

I’m sure no one is interested in this stuff, but like I said before I really shouldn’t care about that should i? Honestly it wasn’t exactly a entry I was planning…I just decided out of the blue to do it after pestering my mom with questions. She’s mostly patient with it, but…I need to rely on myself too. I guess…I just need to try harder, and fight it. I gotta be strong! Everything will be fine eventually.

Plugs: Jamie, Senyth, Adrianne, and Sheena, Georgie

Posted on January 7th, 2018 in Health, Offline by Megan. 10 Comments
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Megan

Name: Megan
Nicknames: Maroon and Maroon Caludin
Gender: Female
Birthdate: September 25th
Age: 32
Occupation: McDonalds employee
Hobbies: Writing, drawing, reading, games, computer, role playing, web design, cartoons, comics, manga/anime, web comics, and animals Read More