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Why yes, I am OCD!

I don’t often share super personal things here. Well, sometimes. 😛

I honestly wasn’t planning on having this as an entry anytime soon if ever. But I just experienced what I call my “freak out” modes. 😓

First, a little back story on my OCD issues!

I’ve always had issues with this. As a kid I always had issues with germs and such (okay, I’m a few things!). I used to wash my hands ALL THE TIME! Not only that I’d use other objects to turn off the facet in fear of the germs. Used to drive my mom crazy. How did I get over it? I believe my mom made me just do it without stuff.

I still freak about germs, but probably not quite as much as I used to. I do have my bad spurts. Like if I worry if I’m getting sick or something. If nothing else work has made me less…sensitive of some germs.

Am I cured? Heck no! I freak out all the time! But I like to think I’m better then I was.

Now onto today’s little issue!

So, I was cleaning and re-filling my infusers for my humidifier. I usually put oil in it too. Sweet Orange! 😙 But yeah, I was cleaning those. Last time I did I had a freak out too. I worry about getting the stuff on me (even though whatever would would be diluted), and had another one of those again. 😩 I changed clothes like twice and stuff. Why? I felt wetness on my sock. Gosh, this sounds so stupid! But in the land of Megan’s brain it seemed I needed to. Really if it was wet should of just changed my socks. But no, I was “Oh its on my pants maybe too!” so changed that and went along with everything else. Then, when I was cleaning had a similar one, and changed again. Even now I would love to change (yay lack of clothes!).

I think the key is doing what my mom made me do before. Ignore it and do stuff anyway! Its so hard though! 😖 But maybe it’ll help…

Meh, as usual I’ll talk to my mom. 😛

Plugs: GeorgieMichelleSakura, and Pauline

Posted on February 12th, 2017 in Health, Offline by Megan. 16 Comments

Posted on February 12th, 2017, at 4:03 pm by Chynna.

I can’t say I completely understand what goes on in someone’s head when they have OCD, but I see where you’re coming from. I recently finished a book by Bryony Gordon called Mad Girl and she opens up about her OCD, depression, anxiety, etc. and was really honest about it. It was quite an eye opener. Know that the blogosphere is a safe space, and we’re always here to listen if you need to vent 🙂 <3

Posted on February 12th, 2017, at 5:04 pm by Maroon Caludin.

Aw thanks so much! *hug*

Posted on February 13th, 2017, at 3:47 am by Kya.

Thank you for sharing such a personal thing. It would be really hard to try and deal with. I am glad that your mom has been helpful and hopefully talking to her might be able to help. 🙂

Posted on February 13th, 2017, at 7:16 pm by Maroon Caludin.


Posted on February 13th, 2017, at 12:22 pm by Cristina.

I am so sorry to hear that you have problems with germs. Maybe telling yourself that it’s ok will help. Our bodies have amazing mechanism to protect us from germs and diseases.
I struggle with anxiety, and being a med school I learn a lot about diseases and some of them happen to young people too. Sometimes I get really anxious and I think I have all the diseases I read about. It’s probably a med student thing but on the other hand I think about the fact that our bodies aren’t that fragile and they can take a lot.

Thank you for leaving messages on my website. I was really busy and struggling with some things, that’s why I wasn’t so active. I am ok now.

I hope your OCD problem will get easier to manage and you will feel better in time. Take care <3

Posted on February 13th, 2017, at 7:16 pm by Maroon Caludin.

For the most part I don’t worry about them quite as much as I used to. But every so often I have issues. Thanks so much! And I hope you’re doing better!

Posted on February 13th, 2017, at 10:45 pm by Georgie.

I have some friends who have issues with germs as well, whether it be on a great scale like OCD (and washing their hands all the time) or just on a smaller scale like being a “germaphobe”. Personally, sometimes I just feel like my hands are really, really dirty when I touch clean things. I always clean my hands before touching something like food.

Posted on February 19th, 2017, at 3:25 pm by Maroon Caludin.

Yeah it seems to be a common issue these days. I’m nowhere as bad as I used to be, but I have my moments!

Posted on February 14th, 2017, at 10:03 pm by Michelle.

It is more than washing hands and being a germaphobe as most people don’t realize, but rather having obsessive thoughts you cannot get out of your head. It is more anxiety ridden than anything but my aunt suffers from it very much and has to take meds for it and I have a bit of it, due to its nature to being hereditary.

Posted on February 19th, 2017, at 3:27 pm by Maroon Caludin.

Yeah, I know. Trust me I do. One of the reasons I take anti-depressions is my contact worrying. About everything you can possibly think of just about! I’ll have stuff I just can’t stop thinking about. Sometimes its real bad, other days I can deal much better.

Posted on February 15th, 2017, at 4:09 pm by Becca.

Thanks for opening up about something so personal, Megan! I would imagine that that would be very frustrating and difficult at times to live with. I consider myself a bit of a neat freak, so I can relate somewhat. I always feel better about things after I’ve talked to my mom. That always helps!

Posted on February 19th, 2017, at 3:28 pm by Maroon Caludin.

Thanks! *hugs*

And yes! Talking to mom’s nearly always helps!

Posted on February 16th, 2017, at 1:35 pm by Alaina.

I must have some OCD too because I do the same thing! If I’m cooking and I think I get some raw meat juice on my arm I’ll change all of my clothes for fear that I’ll get someone sick. It doesn’t seem silly, your experiences are valid <3 I'm happy you have someone (your mom) to clear your conscience with. Hope you are feeling content and better!! <3

Posted on February 19th, 2017, at 3:28 pm by Maroon Caludin.

Thank you!

Posted on February 19th, 2017, at 8:13 am by Pauline.

I understand that this is really personal, sometimes it’s hard to share things like this so thank you <3

Feel free to open up and chat to me about it if you ever need to! It's hard to understand what youre feeling when you have OCD.

Posted on February 19th, 2017, at 3:28 pm by Maroon Caludin.

Aw, thanks! *hugs*


Name: Megan
Nicknames: Maroon and Maroon Caludin
Gender: Female
Birthdate: September 25th
Age: 32
Occupation: McDonalds employee
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