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The joys of anxiety!

Figured I should update. I don’t even think I’ve written in my journal this week! Haven’t really thought to or been lazy. But its been a rough week with work. Hopefully this week will be better! Just gotta try harder! 😘

Today been struggling a bit. Mostly with anxiety and stuff. Partly its cause my period should be coming soon. Also I did take my medications later (for depression and anxiety and stuff). I’m used to taking it at like 4:30 am, I took it around noonish. πŸ˜… So probably a bit of everything. However, I mostly been doing okay dealing with it. Just been telling myself to calm down.

I’ve found this quote helpful from Tiny Budda.com:

β€œWhen you can’t control what’s happening, challenge yourself to control how you respond to what’s happening. That’s where your power is.” – Unknown –

Its got me all over it! πŸ˜† But I keep thinking of it today and I found it helps. That and trying just to ignore stuff.

Also the same site has an interesting book on worries. More info here. Tempted to try it, but not quite sure if its for me. Plus I do have a lot of journals as it is. πŸ˜… I do follow their twitter and like some of the quotes they post.

I am at least nearly done with all my chores. Just a few more to finish up and all done. Its nice to be done a little bit eariar then usual.

I’d like to watch some Magic Knight Rayearth, but probably won’t happen. Hopefully can at least fit in catching up on reading “Precious Moments Holy Bible” though!

Posted on March 31st, 2019 in Health, Offline, Online by Megan. 12 Comments


Been somewhat busy lately. And lazy too! πŸ˜‚

A few months (well more like maybe two at most) we got a treadmill. My mom’s doctor recommended one to her to strengthen her lungs, and I jumped right in saying I’d love one too. Eventually she finally did get one (I’m splitting the price of it with her!) Sadly when we got it when we plugged it in it wouldn’t turn on, so we had to wait for parts for it to be fixed. We waited over a month. It really was ridiculous. One day my mom decided to try plugging it in for the heck of it, and the damn thing turned on! 😦 So, yeah, it apparently works now. So at least we don’t gotta fight to get it repaired anymore.

Anyway, I’ve probably been using it the most. I use it most days for a half hour to an hour. I really love it. It feels great! 😁

Still working at Kingdom Hearts: Final Mix as well, though haven’t been playing a ton. Its hard to find the time sometimes and honestly if I turn it on I’m there for a while. πŸ˜…

Also been playing Sailor Moon Drops on and off. Honestly I’m pretty bored of it (have been for a while) but wanna get my fun in till it shuts down at the end of the month.

Also still working on a secret project for my forum. I will share it once I’m done probably. Its getting there though. πŸ™‚

That’s about it really.

Posted on March 17th, 2019 in Games, Health, Offline, Online, Web Design by Megan. 2 Comments

Updates on life!

Why yes, I am updating. 😜

I’ve been meaning to, just I usually ended up writing in my journal. And I don’t wanna write the same thing over and over, so I don’t write it here too usually. On the plus been somewhat keeping up with writing in my journal. If only I could with other things.

Not much to update on. Another reason I don’t usually write. Sometimes I honestly question why I bother to have a blog, but I don’t quite want to get rid of it at this point so I’ll keep at it for now. Or attempt to.

Mostly just been working. Been playing Kingdom Hearts Final Mix as well. And working on a project for my forum, which is a secret for now. 😝 But I will say its going mostly well.

Work as usual is ugh… 😡 I seriously hate it. Sometimes its okay, but most often I’m just annoyed at the whole thing. I mean I guess that’s normal, but I need to work on that, for myself.

I dunno, just in one of those not entirely wanting to bother with stuff moods. Probably doesn’t help that its my special time of month. πŸ˜†

Well, that’s all for now!

Posted on March 8th, 2019 in Offline, Online, Web Design, Work by Megan. 4 Comments
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Name: Megan
Nicknames: Maroon and Maroon Caludin
Gender: Female
Birthdate: September 25th
Age: 37
Occupation: McDonalds employee
Hobbies: Writing, drawing, reading, games, computers, role playing, web design, cartoons, comics, manga/anime, web comics, and animals Read More