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I’m here, again!

I’ve gone into my lovely habit of disappearing again! Oops! ๐Ÿ˜…ย If it makes ya feel better I do it on my forum too! ๐Ÿ˜†

Anyway, its Sunday so its my usual running around doing chores and chilling in between. This is one of my between times so I decided to finally update here!

As usual I’ve been feeling quite anxious, but today I feel quite good! ๐Ÿ˜Šย I think its a combo of making myself ignore stuff (worries and stuff) and making myself do stuff (yay productiveness!). I really gotta do this regularly. It would probably help me a lot.

Which reminds me. I have a doctor appointment tomorrow. She’ll probably want to check if I feel a difference with the medication I’ve been taking for bipolar issues. Honestly not sure what to tell her. My mom said she noticed a difference. For me, its hard to tell. I have this habit where when I start medications like that and I feel like its magically working, and then once I have a problem I feel like it isn’t. My mom thinks its a confidence thing, which it probably is. That and I tend to fight against anything that might help me. I guess I just gotta let go and let stuff happen. Easier said then done though!

Well, I guess I’ll leave this here. Hopefully I’ll write way sooner this time!

Plugs: Edel, Hiro, Laura, Pauline, Kenny, and Georgie

Posted on February 18th, 2018 in Health, Offline by Megan. 22 Comments

Oh you are so right, a lot of things that come at us in life are easier said that done. BUT, I think it’s great your getting opinions from your mom as well. Sometimes the people around us see much more clearer than we do:)

Black Coffee Beautiful

Posted on February 20th, 2018, at 7:55 pm by Megan.

I’ve nearly always gone to my mom! Though I probably rely on her too much!

Posted on February 21st, 2018, at 4:13 pm by Eirene.

I hope the doctor’s appointment went ok and everything’s sorted with the medication. I also hope you are still feeling good!

Posted on February 24th, 2018, at 1:24 pm by Megan.

Funny thing, my mom happened to tell me it wasn’t this week but the next. XD So…yeah. But am going this week! But thank you!

Posted on February 22nd, 2018, at 3:21 am by Shanae.

Hey Megan, I hope things are looking up for you. I know what it’s like to suffer from bi-polar disorder, and sometimes you honestly cannot help the depression that ensues. Be honest with your doc about how the meds make you feel. I know for me, I have to switch em up ever year or so, simply because I feel as if they begin to wane in effectiveness as my body adjusts to taking them for so long. Keep your head up!

Posted on February 22nd, 2018, at 5:36 pm by Megan.

Thank you very much. =3 I know I sometimes have to switch mine up as well.

Posted on February 23rd, 2018, at 12:55 am by Brandy.

Don’t worry. I disappeared from my blog for most of January and February too. Time just kind of caught up on me. Happens to the best of us. ๐Ÿ™‚

It’s always easier for people to notice your improvements when it comes to mental stuff. They’re always the first to notice.

Posted on February 24th, 2018, at 1:24 pm by Megan.

Yeah, I guess it does happen to everyone! XD I just seem to do it a lot!

Posted on March 1st, 2018, at 7:26 am by Michelle.

Glad you’re back! I tend to do that a bit!

Posted on March 2nd, 2018, at 8:40 pm by Megan.

I think we all do! XD

Posted on March 4th, 2018, at 12:57 am by Kassy.

It’s great to be able to spend time catching up on the things you need to do. I have been a little behind in returning comments but found the time today. ๐Ÿ˜€

I hope that the appointment went well with the doctor. It can be hard to tell with medication sometimes. Having feedback from someone else that knows you well can give you some insight. ๐Ÿ˜€ Maybe with more time, you will notice a difference.

Posted on March 6th, 2018, at 7:17 pm by Megan.

Thanks! I think it went well! Continuing with the same medication!

Posted on March 9th, 2018, at 9:44 am by Claudine.

Ha, I have a habit of disappearing too! LOL but sometimes life just gets in the way XD

I think other people are always the first to notice the difference when it comes to health, especially for patients with mental health concerns. I think it’s a great thing to also ask your mom what she thinks and whether you have improved or not. It gives you a new perspective because sometimes, we tend to be too harsh on ourselves and feel like there’s no improvement ๐Ÿ™‚

Posted on March 11th, 2018, at 5:50 pm by Megan.

Yay! Glad to see I’m not alone!

And gosh yes! I’m always very harsh on myself! I judge myself all the time! ^^;;

Posted on March 10th, 2018, at 2:20 am by Georgie.

I donโ€™t think I have ever mentioned this to you, and I donโ€™t think you know, but I used to own a forum myself, called Skeletons MB. I used to โ€œdisappearโ€ from there quite frequently โ€“ Iโ€™d just become inactive because I had a lot going in life away from the computer. Nothing bad, just got busy with things. And then I would come back and be posting really frequently again. A bit sporadic haha. I guess I do the same with my blog, but good to know I am not alone in that! ๐Ÿ˜‰

Saturday and Sunday are generally my chore days as well. I donโ€™t do much else on the weekend so there is always time. And Iโ€™m usually a bit too busy during the week to do laundry and ironing then.

I think with a lot of things, it can be hard to notice differences ourselves, but usually our loved ones can give us a good idea of how we might have changed. Iโ€™ve even been told by some of my online friends when it seems like my mental health is at a low, and they can also tell when I am in much higher spirits. Your mum would definitely know best I think ๐Ÿ™‚ Your mind might be playing games thinking that the medication is working/not working. Best of luck with the appointment โค๏ธ

Posted on March 11th, 2018, at 5:46 pm by Megan.

Thanks! Also glad to know I’m not alone in disappearing!

Posted on March 10th, 2018, at 10:32 am by Pauline.

We all disappear sometimes ๐Ÿ˜€ And that’s OK! I’m glad you’re feeling better, anxiety sucks. ๐Ÿ™ I’m sorry that you’ve been feeling that way! Try out Calm, it’s – as you know – my go to!! <3

Posted on March 11th, 2018, at 5:43 pm by Megan.


And I have tried Calm! Been using it for several months and love it! =3 Went ahead and bought a subscription!

Posted on March 13th, 2018, at 11:46 am by Kenny.

/looks at the date of this post

Maybe I shouldn’t be the one saying this because I haven’t been posting a lot myself, but Megggggg, you need to post more often. :p

Posted on March 19th, 2018, at 12:46 pm by Megan.

XD Yes, I know! I shall try to post more!

Posted on March 17th, 2018, at 10:29 am by Tabby.

I’m so determined to stick around online and blog that I’ve put a reminder in my phone every couple of days to prompt me to do so… hopefully it’ll work.

I hope the appointment went well

Posted on March 19th, 2018, at 12:42 pm by Megan.

Not a bad idea! Anyway, thanks!


Name: Megan
Nicknames: Maroon and Maroon Caludin
Gender: Female
Birthdate: September 25th
Age: 32
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