First thank you to all the lovely well wishes! It meant a lot!
I’m still not quite in a great place, but not entirely bad either. Kinda meh, and up and down.
However, I am going to try to make more of an effort to change things. For one, I’m taking a break from many things:
- Five Minute Journal
- Awesome Journal
- My other private little habits
Now the last one, will probably be more of a partial break. Knowing me (and how addictive the internet is) I will pop around to check stuff. But I am going to try to limit that. I’d like to refrain from anything I see as a chore. We’ll see how that and all this goes.
Its not that I’m giving up these things, but I need a break from stuff I feel. I may/may not still post here. I’d like to share how stuff goes. I’m not even sure how long I’ll do it for, or how successful I’ll be, but its something I want to try for myself. Some stuff I may go back to doing, some I may not. I just I guess need a breather and I often wondered if a break like this could help.
As I said I’ll likely pop in and out, but I’m going to try to limit my time online.
Also, before I end this on my forum Caludin.com I’m looking for a moderator, so if anyone is interested check it out!
I know some of you may be wondering where my latest post went? Well, I had an issue with my forum (again!) and had to have my host (Thanks, Host Prestige!) do a back up which worked! 😊 Sadly, it was from before my post so lost that. Not planning on re-writing it.
But the gist of it was, that I was given some more medication (for bipolar along with my anti-depressions). I seem to be doing much better lately. ☺️
In fact…today has been a pretty good day. Especially considering how tired I was today! I slept horrid last night! Went to bed late (from messing with my site), and had a hard time sleeping so I got maybe three hours of sleep. But I got up feeling decent.
I’ve also decided to ditch the gratitude journal I was using (I have others too, but not using em yet), and decided to go back to the Five Minute Journal. I love the structure of it. I ordered a new one and till it comes I’ll use the app. Started it today, and it felt lovely. 😊
So, yeah, pretty good day, and am feeling really good!
Now I have to get ready for bed soon! Night!
I never quite got around to mentioning this in my last post, but you may of noticed I stopped referring to myself as Maroon or Maroon Caludin online. I was inspired by Kassy who recently decided to start using her own name.
My own reasons are similar. Using it is more personal. Plus…well…it feels like a way of growing up. To stop using my online name and use my real name. Many of the reasons Kassy gave, inspired me to do the same.
I wasn’t too sure at first, but decided to give it a go.
I have to say it feels so weird! I’ve used that name for so long. Like since high school, so its weird when I post here or on forums seeing just my actual name. But I think I like it. Feels more…me.
Anyway, that’s why you’ll see less of my online name!