I know, I know, I keep disappearing! And when I do appear I don’t post much of anything. I’m going to try to update more! 😅
Anyway, as usual not much to report.
Been having issues off and on with my worries/anxiety, but as always am trying to work through it! And try not to drive my mom too crazy with my constant questions about my worries! 😅 Plus work is nearly always annoying! 😠
I’ve been a little (probably more then a little!) obsessed with role playing as well. Been quite into this one I’ve been doing with a friend on The Coffee House. Gonna try not to let it consume everything though. But not be too hard on myself about it either! There’s loads of stuff I gotta improve on and as I just wrote in my diary/journal all I can do is try and be myself. And I will. 😉
On the plus been reading more. Got through more books! Right now I’m reading “Extreme Teen Bible,” “Conversations with God Book 1,” and “Clariel” by Garth Nix.
Oh and season 7 of My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic started! It started off great! Had me laughing! 😆
That’s about it.
I know, its been a bit right? 😅 Hadn’t really had anything worth posting too much so yeah. I’ll try to update more!
Anyway…like I said not much going on really. Mostly the same old stuff.
Actually been having a little of a rough time lately. Partly since its that lovely time of month (which should be about done!) and been going in and out of depression. Most of it is cause I worry about everything I can possibly worry about! I’m trying to work on it though, as usual.
Sadly my poor mother has even more problems now. She has issues breathing (COPD and asthma) and is on oxygen for 24/7. As if that weren’t bad enough she now has diabetes Type 2. 😭 Poor mom! I mean I don’t think its quite as bad as the other stuff, but still. She’s getting quite frustrated and I don’t blame her. Honestly it scares me because I can’t imagine life without her. She’s like…my best friend I guess. I’m super close to her. I gotta try to help her more too. 😞
I also have gained more weight since I last weighed myself. But its okay. I’ve started working out with my Simply Fit Board. Which you can find out more about here. Its basically a balance board. Its amazing! You can feel it working right away! I’ve been trying to use it everyday.
Anyway, that’s all for now!
I don’t often share super personal things here. Well, sometimes. 😛
I honestly wasn’t planning on having this as an entry anytime soon if ever. But I just experienced what I call my “freak out” modes. 😓
First, a little back story on my OCD issues!
I’ve always had issues with this. As a kid I always had issues with germs and such (okay, I’m a few things!). I used to wash my hands ALL THE TIME! Not only that I’d use other objects to turn off the facet in fear of the germs. Used to drive my mom crazy. How did I get over it? I believe my mom made me just do it without stuff.
I still freak about germs, but probably not quite as much as I used to. I do have my bad spurts. Like if I worry if I’m getting sick or something. If nothing else work has made me less…sensitive of some germs.
Am I cured? Heck no! I freak out all the time! But I like to think I’m better then I was.
Now onto today’s little issue!
So, I was cleaning and re-filling my infusers for my humidifier. I usually put oil in it too. Sweet Orange! 😙 But yeah, I was cleaning those. Last time I did I had a freak out too. I worry about getting the stuff on me (even though whatever would would be diluted), and had another one of those again. 😩 I changed clothes like twice and stuff. Why? I felt wetness on my sock. Gosh, this sounds so stupid! But in the land of Megan’s brain it seemed I needed to. Really if it was wet should of just changed my socks. But no, I was “Oh its on my pants maybe too!” so changed that and went along with everything else. Then, when I was cleaning had a similar one, and changed again. Even now I would love to change (yay lack of clothes!).
I think the key is doing what my mom made me do before. Ignore it and do stuff anyway! Its so hard though! 😖 But maybe it’ll help…
Meh, as usual I’ll talk to my mom. 😛