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Some doggy fun!

Well, I’ve managed to anger the dog. 😂

My mom has been nagging me to go through my dog’s mountain of toys and toss some out. I decided to do that. I dumped em all on the floor, and my dog Poppy went in the middle and was poking through them. She was not very happy with me throwing some out! 😅 She kept poking her head in the garbage bag and sometimes running off with toys. I did let her help decide. If she showed interest I usually kept it, if not it went, or if it was broke and stuff.

She still has quite a bit left, and I kept her very favorites. She’ll be getting more next week for her birthday too!

It was pretty fun going through them with her. My sister’s dog just watched. (She lives with my sister, but visits often!)

Now, off to finish off some stuff for the day!

Plugs: Edel and Chynna

Posted on January 8th, 2018 in Offline, Pets by Megan. 9 Comments

Some personal things…

I do have to get my rear to bed, which I will…shortly. I know I’m due for a post here, plus some things I’d like to well write out. Maybe.

I have a tendency to think I should only post about the more positive things. Which I guess is dumb. I guess I shouldn’t care what people do think about I write here or not. Its really meant to be my little spot on the web and I shouldn’t be afraid of that, here or well…anywhere honestly. I lack confidence so I do struggle with that sort of thing. I’ve lost a lot of it over the last couple years, which I need to gain back. I guess really I should only care what I think of myself and well like God and Jesus.

But anyway…I’ve been struggling a lot over the last couple years. Some of it is confidence. Some is my constant worrying. I worry about every possible thing I can just about. And I don’t trust my answers. I tend to go to my mother, which is fine, but I rely too much on her. Its not good for either of us. Plus I know the answers by now, but I still don’t trust myself. And honestly in the end, worrying does nothing. But I just get scared something bad will happen if I don’t. I have ignored them at times, and I find I do better then, but I really have to fight to not ask my mom. This is actually why I’m on anti-depression medication mostly. Though I do suffer from depression as well. Sometimes its real bad, others not so much. I’ve always had issues with this, its just gotten worse the last couple years or so. I also have the tendency to fight against it sort of. I don’t let the medicine do its job. I almost look for things to worry about. I don’t want to…it just happens.

Some of it might be anxiety. I’m not sure really.

I’ve been going to a new doctor for the last few months. My other doctor mostly just gave me my medicine, this one includes a counselor. I’m not sure what I think of it yet. I have a real hard time talking to them. I tend to be quiet and shy, plus I feel like she’ll judge me. Which I know I shouldn’t…her job is to help me.

I’ve been meditating on and off over the year. Mostly on, which I do find helps sometimes. Sometimes more then other times. I do enjoy that.

I’m sure no one is interested in this stuff, but like I said before I really shouldn’t care about that should i? Honestly it wasn’t exactly a entry I was planning…I just decided out of the blue to do it after pestering my mom with questions. She’s mostly patient with it, but…I need to rely on myself too. I guess…I just need to try harder, and fight it. I gotta be strong! Everything will be fine eventually.

Plugs: Jamie, Senyth, Adrianne, and Sheena

Posted on January 7th, 2018 in Health, Offline by Megan. 8 Comments

A new name…sort of

I never quite got around to mentioning this in my last post, but you may of noticed I stopped referring to myself as Maroon or Maroon Caludin online. I was inspired by Kassy who recently decided to start using her own name.

My own reasons are similar. Using it is more personal. Plus…well…it feels like a way of growing up. To stop using my online name and use my real name. Many of the reasons Kassy gave, inspired me to do the same.

I wasn’t too sure at first, but decided to give it a go.

I have to say it feels so weird! I’ve used that name for so long. Like since high school, so its weird when I post here or on forums seeing just my actual name. But I think I like it. Feels more…me.

Anyway, that’s why you’ll see less of my online name!

Plugs: Kassy and Sheena

Posted on January 2nd, 2018 in Online, Updates by Megan. 8 Comments
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Megan

Name: Megan
Nicknames: Maroon and Maroon Caludin
Gender: Female
Birthdate: September 25th
Age: 32
Occupation: McDonalds employee
Hobbies: Writing, drawing, reading, games, computer, role playing, web design, cartoons, comics, manga/anime, web comics, and animals Read More