Ugh…

This computer is getting annoying. It didn’t feel like loading stuff. Took me like 20 minutes to get it to behave. Maybe time to save up for a new one…sometimes I hate computers.

Haven’t really heard from my two friends, which is irritating me. Its probably fine…but I wish they’d just contact me and say. :( I’m paranoid damnit! Whatever…not even going to go there. I am not going to overreact or upset myself…I’ll try to at least. Though am a little… *sigh* You guys probably know who you are. Please come on or respond to my messages! It’ll at least put my mind at ease a bit.

On the plus am off for the weekend. :D

I’m sorry

Okay, I overeacted. And to the two people I was ranting about, I’m sorry about that. Please forgive me. :( I hope if you did happen to read it you understand that I was ranting and please don’t take it personally. Part of it was due to other things, but I’m still sorry. I’ve contacted you both, so please respond, kay?

Anyway…I’m feeling better. I’m still a little unhappy, but work is part of it. I don’t even want to get into it. I’ve at least stopped sulking around. I was doing that badly Sunday. But that was due to depression too. And my stupidness. I’m feeling a lot better then I was. I feel I can do stuff again. :)

At the moment in the middle of doing a brief cleaning of my room. I’ll do it more tomorrow. I gotta work at five in the morning so I can’t do a ton. I wanna relax too.

I need to pick out a new book to read. If there’s nothing I want to read that I haven’t, I may participate in the re-reading of the Beautiful Creatures series. Not quite sure what I want to re-read. Loads of books I’d love to. I’d like to read the stuff by Terry Brooks too. Of course that’s a loooooong reading since there’s like over 20 books. Not sure yet…

Been playing The Legend of Dragoon for Playstation. That’s pretty cool. The battles are actually kinda fun.

Alone

Well, I feel like a useless piece of rejected shit. :cry:

Started last night…I was talking to a so called friend, trying to get him to post, but nooo, he was too busy for that. Or to even respond to me.  Never heard from him again all night. He supposedly was going to after, but nope. Why should he bother?

Contacted another friend that I role play with, never heard from her either.

Fuck them all. Apparently I matter to no one.

I get I’m being a baby about stupid role playing…but it feels like no one wants to anymore…I’m the only one that attempts…I feel adbandeded. And like crap. Work isn’t helping me either there since I feel like crap there too. I just feel like no one cares anymore…

Haven’t heard from anyone all day. I spent the day in bed sulking.

Well, thanks guys. Love you too.

I’ll probably just close my forum. What’s the use? No one visits…no one role plays there anymore. Its a waste. Same with here…no point in bothering with anything anymore…

Excuse me while I go cry again.

All gones

I was just looking for link directories…mostly looking for more…personal made ones. Like…a typical web designer. All the ones that used to be around are gone.

Its the same with a lot of my old favorite sites…either their gone or just not updated anymore. It makes me a little sad. And makes me feel a little old.

The thing is…the people whose sites I visited a lot and stuff have moved on. They’ve gotten older and either don’t have time or have closed their sites. It makes me a bit sad…makes me want to make other sites to fill that void. But, I’m not diving into anything too major right now. As far as web design. I got enough with this and my forum for now. Among other things.

I haven’t exactly been super active online really. These days I just like to role play online mostly. And check on stuff. Mostly My Little Pony related.

Well, I’ll have to hunt down some other listing sites. I need to get my sites more out there. Any suggestions, feel free to comment.

Ack…

So, was going back downstairs to bring my canaries upstairs (I bring them down so their not by themselves sometimes and they like to see other animals and people). On the way down I slipped and slid a few steps down. Which it looks like irritated my back some. Yay. :mad:

It hurts in my lower back. Not major. I don’t think its as bad as the last time. The last time I had slid down the stairs. I thought I was fine, so went back to bed and went to work later. It started to hurt at work. At first I thought it was my hip, but it was my back. Its never been the same since. Mind you I had a bad back before. Probably from years of sleeping on the couch when I was younger. But not this bad. Sometimes it hurts real bad. Hopefully this doesn’t develop into a major thing.

This is at least the thrid time I’ve done this. Once I rolled down. :lol: Didn’t hurt a thing that time. The first two times I had been trying to go to the bathroom during the night. Our upstairs bathroom is right by the stairs. Plus I was like half asleep likely both times. I went too far, and wheee! Down I went. The time I rolled I didn’t even know what was happening. I was way too out of it. :lol:

I really gotta be more careful.

Well, back to Wild Arms.

I did its!

Well, I did it. I closed all my fanlistings. I’m a little sad, but kinda proud of myself. That’s a weight off my shoulders. :)

I just submitted the forms, so still gotta delete the actual sites, which I’ll likely do later or something. I’ll likely get rid of my other domain. Not the forum. That stays. And this blog. Or I’ll use it for something else. Not sure yet.